Temporary Solution

PILLS

This.
This is what a solution to my problems look like.
It helps me to sleep.
I tend to sleep a lot when having problems.
So these, they assure me to sleep.

I'm too old I guess.
I'm easily affected by little things around me.
And sometimes, it feels as if I am trapped in the most darkest, deepest hole.

I feel like i'm not me.
It feels like the vessel is mine.
The spirit within isn't mine.

Darn. This cant be harder to explain.

Been a while

Been quite a while since my last rambling.
Ada je sebenarnya. Tak kemana.

These past few months *almost a year* been veey rough and tough on me.
I was sick. Like, really sick that I thought I wouldn't be able to make it through.
But Alhamdulillah i'm surviving.

A lot happen.
I tried writing here within those time I disappeared. I wrote, then I deleted.
I kinda kept doing it few times.
Then I realized, maybe I wasnt ready to tell.

You know. I write because I dont want to forget.
So when another tough times comes, i'll be able to remember that i've been through a tougher times but I survived.
Not that I writs so people read.
I know, like literally nobody is reading this.

But still. Rambling, writing, spilling out everything I feel here makes me feel better.
Feels like I can tell almost anything and I really feel less burdened.

Ok then for now.