#497

Rule #497.

My friend is not your friend.
Your friend is not my friend.

So, u, seeing me talking to my 30+ years old fren using "aku hang, I You, saya awak" doesnt mean u may do so too.

Just remember, that person is my friend, have some respect for the age gap and please, dont just simply drop the formalities. If u're in position of having age gap with my fren, please, kindly address him/her as abang/kakak/aunty/uncle. We may be so close that we could drop the formalities but u, it may be a long harsh thorny road ahead.

Well, unless u, me and that person are already fren. That, of course is another story.

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Terasa tak rasa rasa

Pernah tak, rasa seolah olah terasa sangat, sampai satu tahap dah tak rasa apa. Jadi pape yang buat kau terasa pun, kau macam "oh?eh?okay". Pernah?

Aku pernah je.
Ada la rasa pelik. Tapi aku punya rasa tak rasa pape tu lagi dominan so basically, aku tak rasa pape. Gitu.

Susah kan nak cakap.
Nak taip pun susah.

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Bella

I'm adopting a kitty.
One of members in the Kucing Parsi and DLH something posted in the group, saying she and her fren found the kitty in a super huge longkang, yesterday. They took her home, cleaned her and took care of her for a night. Then this morning I saw their post in the group so I didnt think twice *sigh* and I decided to adopt her.

Bought new cage, litter, litter box. I already have the kibbles and the milk, that two kind girls gave it when they handed me the kitty.

I named her Bella. I kinda liked that name.
And Bella now is trying hard to adapt to her new home I guess, screaming on top of her lung everytime I put her in the cage. I had to. I need to train her to use the litter box well, so she wont be yelled at when she poo or pee all over the house. Trust me, i'm soooo not good in controlling my anger, i'll just yell at her later if she do that.

The hardest time when having a cat is when they are still in learning process. First 3 4 months are a bit challenging. Back in Terengganu, my kittens below than 4 months kept getting on my nerve. They are all outdoor cats but still, of all the time and places, they chose to pee or poo behind the sofa, when they are indoor. Every single time. And sometimes it took me (most of the time my mother) to clean it up almost 5 times a day.

But then when they're older, that habit just pooffff, disappear!

Back to Bella's now.
She's been screaming. Refuse to stay in the cage. Tossing the litter out. Sleep in her litter box. Pushing her face out.

Only been 8 hours being with her and it feels like i'm losing it. I really am. Why the heck did I adopt her when they are lots of other volunteers willing to? Oh well yeah, because i've been longing for a little kitty for quite some time.

It feels good to have her. Except for the scream. And her throwing tantrums.

And honestly, it suddenly feels like i'm carrying a big responsibility.

Guess what I said to her just now?
"Bella, peranfai tu tolong elok sikit. I bagi u mass seminggu je. Buat perangai lagi, u jadi anak tiri I. I bagi u kat orang nanti"

Yeahh it' mean.
I know. Just that I cant stand the scream.
Please adapt urself asap.
Please please please stop screaming.
Or else, i'll be screaming along.

#pic is Bella, staring at me when I first took her tadi. Dia tenung sampai teleng teleng kepala. Pastu bising jugak. Bingit ah kau. Hahahahahaha ok tak klaka.

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Complicated

Selalu nampak post lawak lawak, happy, marah marah tak bermakna orang tu happy je manjang. Tak bermakna dia tak sedih. Tak bermakna dia tak depressed.

Kadang sebenarnya rasa macam malas.
Kadang rasa macam depressed.
Tak lalu makan, tdo pun terjaga jaga, mimpi manjang la asyik nak kena bunuh, tak nak jumpa orang, tak nak sembang dengan orang, dengar cerita orang pun rasa nak terbalikkan kerusi meja semua.

I thought I was just ok.
Until I saw a post about depression.
I had it once. This feeling kinda feel like it.
But most of the time, I feel like i'm ok kot.
But at some of the time, I dont feel ok.

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Mulut manusia

Pakcik Reflexology: badan awak tak kuat. Awak akan selalu sakit sakit. Tak ada ubatnya.. sampai ke sudah camni..

Pakcik: KakLong sihat? Sian kaklong.. banyak hari yang sakit dari sihat ye?

Kawan: Ehh, kau ingat ada ke lelaki yang nak dengan orang yang selalu sakit macam ku ni? Takde ok?

Terasa la jugak seminit. Tapi kisah pulak aku dengan kata kata korang? Ngahaha. Sebab aku tau aku kurang sihat maka aku sedar aku tak perlu bazirkan masa sihat dengan bersedih.

Sebab tu aku do silly things.
Sebab tu aku treasure every time I have.

Despite the fibroid adenoma, usus radang, perut nipis, darah menitik kot mulut hidung tiap kali muntah, jantung yang tak kuat, low blood pressure, food allergies, pinggang selalu bengkak, tulang belakang bengkok, I lived a happy life almost 26years though.

I can survive all of these.
Jadi kalo takat kata kata korang tu, mak incik tak heran ye.

Korang bukan Tuhan.

#i'msuchatoughwoman
#ispeakfluentsarcasmthanudo

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Alienated

Sedih lah hoi. Susah jadi pompuan berhati tisu ni. Kena tiup sket, dah melayang layang terbang.

Ada benda yang langsung aku tak heran pun.
Tapi ada benda yang memang aku sangat sangat amik kisah dan buat aku sentap.

Aku plan nak pergi satu expo malam ni. So aku ajak la my frens.. and then aku tau tadi diorang ajak kawan kawan diorang jugak.. so ttbe jadi kena pergi dua kete. Tau, aku tak la patut sentap pun tapi ntah.

Maybe sebab aku and kawan kawan aku dah agak renggang so kadang bila spend some quality time together tu boleh la bonding balik kan. Tapi ni tak. Bila diorang dengan kawan kawan diorang and aku pulak takde kawan lain time tu, alienated lah jugak rasa.

Sentap.

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Tak selesa

Aku rasa macam aku jahat la. Ke ada jugak yang seangkatan dengan aku?

Kadang kadang, no matter how hard a person tries to make me feel comfortable being around him/her, aku takkan rasa selesa. TAKKAN.
Kadang kadang, a person doesn't have to do anything pun for me to be comfortable around him/her. Memang selesa dah pun.

Masalahnya kalau bersebab, logic la jugak.
Ni aku punya sebab adalah 'sebab aku tak suka dan sebab takde sebab'.

Tapiiiiii, bila dah terhutang budi, terpaksa la pura pura macam ok je takde pape. Padahal hati membentak. Tapi tu lah, dah terhutang budi, orang baik dengan aku. Tapi masalahnya adalah aku ni rasa tak selesaaaaaaaaaaa.

Stress lah.
Jangan lah hendaknya nanti esok aku buat keje gila.
Jangan lah hendaknya aku lupa budi orang kat aku.
Gagahkan jugak lah jiwa raga ni. Nak jumpa kawan yang aku rasa tak selesa being around tu.

Bertabahlah.

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Ketagih

Tadi pergi farmasi. Pastu..

Me: Kak, ubat allergy yang kaler kuning tablet tu ada?
Pharmacist: Ada.
Me: Bagi saya dua. Hurm, akak, kalau ubat untuk kurangkan bengkak kat **, ubat apa yang sesuai ye?
Pharmacist: Bengkak macam mana tu, BENGKAK SUSU ke?

Nak kira camna ni? Hah? Nak kira macam manaaaa ni?

Nak beli ubat bengkak, maka aku bengkak susu.
Pergi klinik berkain batik, maka dianggap nya aku keguguran.
Pergi klinik sakit puan, maka aku disyaki untuk check kandungan.
Ada budak belakang aku masa queue, maka dia disangka anak aku.
Aku dukung baby maka ditanya "la dah kawen ye, ada anak dah?"

Ketagih sungguh korang nak tengok aku menikah dan beranak ye.

Tampar bagi berguling guling baru tau.

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Katanya, sekolah pondok takde sijil

One of our relatives once show how concern can a human being be when my little brother went to Sekolah Pondok at Thailand. Katanya, tiada sijil. Tiada spm. Susah nanti.

Dulu, aku sendiri kurang yakin. Mampu ke adik aku yang cerewet bab makan, suka marah marah (well, that kinda resembles me) tinggal jauh dari family, tinggal sendiri kat tempat penuh kekurangan. Aku risau, mampu kah dia. Boleh kah dia jadi apa yang kami impikan, boleh ke dia jadi lebih baik.

Seeing how he changed now, my doubt was proven to be shitty pointless piece of negative thoughts.

I am proud of him. Very much.
Tak lagi cerewet. Tak lagi marah marah. Bahkan setiap amarah dan perlian aku, dia balas dengan senyum. Dan bila dia menegur kami, halus, lembut.

Dan saat dia ucapkan "Abah, Along, kalau kita doa dan minta segala yang keduniaan, maka dunia lah yang kita dapat. Jika kita doa minta kebaikan akhirat, maka segala kebaikan dunia dan akhirat yang akan kita dapat". Kau tak tau betapa berharga nya pesanan kau.

Dan bila kami satu keluarga berbincang soal agama, adik aku bukan lagi yang dulu. Lain orangnya.

To that so-concern-relative, dia mungkin takde sijil dunia macam kau nak anak anak kau ada. Tapi dia dah jadi penerang dan penyebab Abah Ummi aku tersenyum bangga.

Dik, tak perlu kisah soal dunia. Kau kejar akhirat, kau akan dapat dunia. Macam yang selalu aku cakap, aku kakak kau. Aku takkan biar kau sendiri. Kalau satu dunia halang kebaikan kau, kau ada aku.

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Makan

There we go again..

Aku kan agak cerewet bab makan. Lunch nasi last hari rabu.. then sabtu (semalam) baru makan nasi lagi.. tu pun half dari kuantiti biasa. Tadi paksa jugak makan, telan la dua tiga suap.

Apa kena pun aku tak tau la. Sudahnya kalo kejadian ini berterusan maka aku akan jadi walking skeleton la sudahnya. Pastu bila Doctor inject aku dengan B Complex, baru reti nak menangis bagai. Jadahnye la perangaiiii.

Now kat kedai makan. Lapar tapi tak tau nak makan apa. Tapi taknak la perut kosong je so keluar jugak makan. Aku order bihun goreng n sirap limau. Tapi aku punya spec adalah begini:

"Sirap limau satu, limau perah je. Kulit jangan letak sekali. Bihun goreng satu, xnak kicap sotong, xnak sos tiram, xnak sayur, taknak segala bagai hiasan daun bawang, bawang goreng smua tu".

Harap nya tukang masak ni tak merosakkan mood aku untuk cuba makan dengan memperkosa makanan aku. Harapnyaaa.

Kalau x, i'll definitely be a starving walking monster.

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Always...

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Not suitable for man. #NSFM

Sometimes, when I am not being me, I am actually being me.
Sometimes, when I am being strange, I am being me.

I am a single, unmarried girl with a body condition of a 4 months pregnant girl. Yeah u read me. No I'm not saying i'm buncit, well sort of, but that was completely due to my menstrual cycle!

Been experiencing cramping, contraction, and not to mention the irritation. Darn it. I'm getting irritated at my own condition. Not comfortable.

Who have the experience of "come on girl, push, pushhh. It's almost out" but not yet married, let alone in labor? *put my hands up*. Yeahh. Again, me.

With almost every contraction, i've been trying to push them out. Well, girls know what is it that I'm trying to push out. Because when it's out, I am no longer in condition of not-being-me-is-being-me.

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Kopiah, jubah dan polis

Pekerjaan/Pakaian KADANG KALA tak semestinya menggambarkan peribadi. Tapi tolong lah, jangan rosakkan nama pekerjaan/pakaian yang kau pakai tu dengan peribadi dan kelakuan kau yang huru hara tu.

Kalau berkopiah, tolong bukak kopiah tu dulu masa nak bercakap soal hal dalam kelambu orang lain. Sebab nanti gara gara kau, akan ada orang pandang "choii, pakai kopiah tapi perangai haremjadd".

Kalau berjubah dan bertudung labuh, tolong tukar dulu pakaian kalau nak menghina mengumpat keji orang lain. Sebab nanti gara gara kau, akan ada yang memandang "choii, bertutup litup tapi mulut puaka"

Dan kalau anda polis, dan sedang memandu kenderaan jabatan, tolong jangan langgar undang undang jalan raya dan recklessly driving, contohnya memotong di garisan double line di Grik dan memotong di laluan salah dia flyover ke Kangar. Nak buat jugak, jangan guna kenderaan jabatan anda. Sebab nanti orang (read: me) akan cakap "ek elehh. Polis pun langgar undang undang".

So please please please. Time na buat jahat tu, jangan libatkan pekerjaan murni kau, jangan libatkan pakaian Islamic kau. Sebab nanti akan rosak nama Islamic tu, rosak nama polis tu.

Kenapa hanya 3 golongan ni yang disebut?

Sebab aku punya sejarah dengan mereka ni.
Dan mereka ni aku put high expectations, tapi akhirnya jatuh tergolek.

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Lapar

Super duper lapar.
Lapar tahap kaki menggigil, dada sakit, kepala pusing pusing.
My last nasi adalah semalam, tengahari. Tu pun beberapa suapan je.
Gila kebal perut ni. Ada rasa lapar tapi macam xtau nak makan apa kan.
Tunggu lepas maghrib jap lagi baru nak keluar. Gila seksa dah ni.

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Have u..

Have u ever felt like yelling out so loud?
Have u ever felt like lashing out at people?
Have u ever felt like throwing everything around u?
Have u ever felt so hungry but u dont really have desires to eat?
Have u ever felt so guilty for being so at ease?
Have u ever felt mentally tired and need rest when u have actually dont do much?
Have u ever felt like half of u want to sleep but another half refuses to?

But above all, have u ever felt so much hatred for urself?

Yeahh. Me too.
Am experiencing all of them now.

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Again..

Have u ever have lots of things to do that u dont even know where to start? Then u just end up doing nothing?

Yeahh. Me too.
Been experiencing this for quite some times. And still am.

#sigh

Hukum Flexible katanya......

Orang yang menipu wang tinggit orang lain ni, ungkapan "weh haram makan duit orang" or "berdosa lah buat cenggitu" rasanya tak lut dah kat diorang.

Pihak yang ditipu pun kekadang cakap "aku tak halal kan dunia akhirat apa kau amik".. mintak maaf cakap la ye, pointless semua tu.

Agak agak kau, kalau dia tau halal haram, dia buat ke?
Agak agak kau, kalau dia tau dosa pahala, dia sebat ke duit orang?

Takde de. Kalau dulu, sebut soal halal haram, dosa ni semua dah gigil gigil sebab takut xlepas nak mati nanti. Sangkut masa nak mati ke. Sekarang ni, kekadang macam makin ramai yang tertutup rasa takut tu.. moga tertutup tu sementara. Jangan selamanya Allah tutup. Nauzubillah.

Betullah kata abah.. sekarang ni halal kalo nak. Kalo xnak, maka haram lah.

Contohnya, jumpa duit singgit tengah jalan, "ehh ni duit orang..haram amik".. maka hukum yang dia putuskan adalah HARAM. Tapi kalo jumpa rm1000, terus pandang kiri kanan and cakap "ni rezeki dari Allah"..maka HALAL lah hukum yang dia putuskan.

Hukum dah diubah ikut kehendak diri. Baik bagi kau, maka hukumnya boleh. Kalau kau xnak, maka hukumnya tak boleh.

Musibat sgt perangai kan?