Real Downdate

My previous post was a success. Published. So i may happily start writing here again. With presence of a little bit of rajin. A little would be enough..just enough. Haha. 

Been quite a time since my last time here. Wasnt that much busy. Dont know why. I have a lot to write. Really, a lot. But dont know where to start..why would i start..and what should i start with. These past couple of months been really tough on me. I've been down for i think countless time. Not to mention the times i cried so hard.

Life sometimes is so hard on me. Or is it me who get weaker? Problems came and never leave. That is actually the problem. Sometimes it feel like i am the one who didnt want to let all the problems go. Wonder why..

Argh screw the problems.
I kept reminding myself.."tough time wont last. But the tough person do last"..i dont want to be the lady oppressed by those tough times..i want to be a lady who could oppressed the tough time..and a lady of which the tough time would be like "darn it. It's that tough lady we are trying to mess with.. Back off.. Back offfff!!!"

Let it go with the flow. Tak payah serabutkan kepala pikir benda yang tak perlu pikir. Apa aku merepek ni. Tuihh.

Aku sekarang kat Pengkalan Taman Laut Kedah ni. Tdo sini. Sebab esok dah masuk pulau balik. Aku pun takde transport esok, plus nak standby awal awal, maka datang la awal malam ni. Ada orang volunteer nak fetch kat rumah tadi. Aku dah kat pulau almost 2 months dah ni. Hitam gila dah muka. Tudung nak pakai pun dah limited. Sebab muka dah gelap kan..so kena extra careful pilih kaler. Kang jadi Dayang Senandung aku.

Aku pelik sebenarnya. Sepatutnya masa duk pulau ni la best time untuk slim..tapi aku gained 3kgs weh. Pulau tu bukannya ada restoran, hotel segala.. Pulau tu biasanya tourist datang between 10am-3pm je.lepastu aku and staf taman laut semua dah macam kau pandang muka dia.dia pandang muka aku.aku pandang muka kau. Tapi best. Sunyi je. Tapi tak best sebab aku dah gained extra kgs ni.

Stress mak nokkkk.

Oh btw, post ni xcantik sebab aku tak reti justifykan. Halal laaaaaa.

Regards,
Mommy.